Mercy!

All week long as I have followed the events in Gaza, Iraq, and Syria, my heart has been calling out, “Lord have mercy!” As my country mourns the loss of a man known for his humor, and yes, his kindness; I have prayed God’s mercy for those I know who daily square off against the demon of depression and with great courage, choose life. As my sister and members of my church family endure the next round of chemo…God have mercy!
David prayed for mercy regarding his sins, which were many. Psalm 51:1 Have mercy on me, O God, according to your steadfast love, according to your abundant mercy blot out my transgressions.
Certainly, that is the first vital step to restoring our broken relationship to God, but that has not represented my heart’s cry this week. This description of the Kyrie Eleision (Lord have mercy) as understood from the Greek Orthodox tradition, comes closer to where my heart has been dwelling.
“The word mercy in English is the translation of the Greek word eleos. This word has the same ultimate root as the old Greek word for oil, or more precisely, olive oil; a substance which was used extensively as a soothing agent for bruises and minor wounds. The oil was poured onto the wound and gently massaged in, thus soothing, comforting and making whole the injured part. The Hebrew word, which is also translated as eleos and mercy, is hesed, and means steadfast love. The Greek words for ‘Lord, have mercy,’ are ‘Kyrie, eleison’ that is to say, ‘Lord, soothe me, comfort me, take away my pain, show me your steadfast love.’ Thus mercy does not refer so much to justice or acquittal a very Western interpretation but to the infinite loving-kindness of God, and his compassion for his suffering children!” (Kyrie Eleison to read more.)
Jesus loves the little children; we used to sing in Sunday school. ALL the children of the world! I firmly believe that every child who loses their life here on earth is instantly taken into the loving arms of the Father God.
Matthew 18:10 “See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that in heaven their angels always see the face of my Father who is in heaven.”
2 Samuel 12:23 “But now he is dead. Why should I fast? Can I bring him back again? I shall go to him, but he will not return to me.”
Still those left behind with aching arms are in desperate need of that soothing oil of mercy. How can this mercy be poured out then in these remote places of the world and even to those in darkness around us who do not know of the Father God who loves them?
We who know the way, must go to the source of mercy: Hebrew 4:16 “Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.”
We must be filled with mercy and grace like a treasure carried in a jar of clay: 2 Corinthians 4:7 “But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us.”
We then have a God-given responsibility to pour out that mercy to others: James 2, “8 If you really fulfill the royal law according to the Scripture, “You shall love your neighbor as yourself,” you are doing well… 12 So speak and so act as those who are to be judged under the law of liberty. 13 For judgment is without mercy to one who has shown no mercy. Mercy triumphs over judgment.”
Practically speaking, I cannot go and rescue all the children in harm’s way around the world. I can pray however for mercy to be extended to them from whatever means God can use! I can start much closer to home giving mercy and not judgment to my family, neighbors, church community and especially to that person from another part of the world that God has brought to my doorstep so that He can love them through me.

When I don’t know what I am doing…

Being an introverted person, I have often found myself in social situations where I felt out of my depth. However, I have also enjoyed playing parts in dramas, and amateur church theatre productions; so even if it the settings were uncomfortable I could usually fake it. Maybe the demands of living in another culture have made it too much of a constant challenge or I am just getting too old to keep up the fronts, but I seem to be failing at it miserably lately.

I find myself in more and more settings where I seem to fit like a square peg in the proverbial round hole.  For a person who chronically struggles with attempting to please people and live up to their expectations the result is that I feel perpetually like I am failing God and others. I just could not find my footing, my place to stand; my way to be that did not disappoint and aggravate those around me.

As I walk away for yet another social debacle, I find myself thinking of Christ’s words from the cross when He said, Luke 23:34 “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.” If Christ could forgive those who were killing him because they thought they were disposing of another traitor; surely He can forgive me. I know I have not been what others expected me to be; I just did not know what to do!  Every attempt to fit the prescribed box has left me feeling frustrated, and others irritated. I could not figure out the role. In the process, I have let people down and tarnished my witness of the love of God. Can I be forgiven for not knowing what to do?

There are times in life when the way before us seems so confused that to move in any direction seems impossible. In these moments, I long for a Joshua encounter.

Joshua 5:13-15 (ESV)

13 When Joshua was by Jericho, he lifted up his eyes and looked, and behold, a man was standing before him with his drawn sword in his hand. And Joshua went to him and said to him, “Are you for us, or for our adversaries?” 14 And he said, “No; but I am the commander of the army of the Lord. Now I have come.” And Joshua fell on his face to the earth and worshiped and said to him, “What does my lord say to his servant?” 15 And the commander of the Lord’s army said to Joshua, “Take off your sandals from your feet, for the place where you are standing is holy.” And Joshua did so.

It has become irrelevant who is right or wrong, who is on what side; please God just show up and take over this battle.  My shoes are off, and my face is in the dust. I confess I do not know how to tear down these Jericho walls. Please forgive me, when I don’t know what I should be doing! 

So, I must trust, Romans 8:26, 26 Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. 27 And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.

Please Spirit of God; intercede according to what is the will of God for I don’t know what to do!

Take heart my friend, we’ll go together
This uncertain road that lies ahead
Our faithful God has always gone before us
And He will lead the way once again

Take heart my friend, we can walk together
And if our burdens become too great
We can hold up and help one another
In God’s love, in God’s grace

Take heart my friend, the Lord is with us
As He has been all the days of our lives
Our assurance every morning
Our defender in the night

If we should falter when trouble surrounds us
When the wind and the waves are wild and high
We will look away to Him who rules the waters
Who spoke His peace into the angry tide

He is our comfort, our sustainer
He is our help in time of need
And when we wander He is our shepherd
He who watches over us, never sleeps

Take heart my friend, the Lord is with us
As He has been all the days of our lives
Our assurance every morning
Our defender in the night

Take heart my friend, the Lord is with us
As He has been all the days of our lives
Our assurance every morning
Our defender in the night

By Fernando Ortega ©2011